My mind has been at peace lately. And as I write this I am reminded of the long winter that seems to have enveloped many of my past years, in which my mind was neither at rest nor knew this gentle stranger named peace. You know, its strange when we stop to acknowledge time; when we find ourselves thinking about the very moment we are in and realize that in that moment we are infinitely happy.
On my ride home from work today I experienced one such moment, and the happiness of this moment has continued to fill my soul with joy immeasurable. I’m happy to be working again. I feel blessed to have been chosen to work with such wonderfully caring individuals and with people who need to be loved and cared for. I feel grateful I was able to obtain the education necessary for me to enter into this line of work. I feel more than undeserving for the opportunities I have been given and for the loving-kindness, grace, and provisions God has bestowed upon me.
At this moment, everything seems to be falling into place in my life. It only took the act of me letting go of control and opening myself up to what God has in store for me. For so long, I tiredly labored to control even the most trivial aspects of my life- always preparing, wearily worrying, and planning my next moves. Yet, from the very beginning of my existence, God has known my hopes, my dreams, my yearnings, and my fears. He knew me before I was in my mother’s womb and He continues to know each hair on my head. Why I ever doubted His care or provision is beyond my current understanding, though I do acknowledge the reality that my pride and fear were tenured co-pilots of my life’s helm.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, ”Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
I can attest to this. He does not leave me, nor does He ever forsake me. I am never without His guidance. And though my bank account may not overflow, nor my status, popularity, or material possessions ever compare to those who enjoy the fleeting riches of this life, I am without sadness or want because my heart is filled with the light of Christ and the ever-present joy He gives.
If I could ever give anyone trustworthy advice that works one hundred percent of the time, it would be to lay down your life, your whole life, at the foot of the cross. I have been a Christian since I was fifteen years old, and though I gave my heart to its rightful owner, I kept pieces of it for myself because I thought I could manage my heart better than He could. Actually, I think I thought I “needed” to manage my heart because nobody else would. How wrong I was!
I want to encourage you today to trust in God with everything you have. I believe Jesus when He says in Matthew 11:30, “For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” My life has proven to be so much more difficult when I’ve held onto the things Jesus promised to handle for me. I am now learning to give everything over to Him, including my attempts to control my life’s circumstances. Today, in this place where my striving once sickly thrived, I have found joy, peace, and comfort. My worry- now a mirage before me, continues to fade into the light of His perpetual love.

















